Facebook.. people??

Peace be upon you.. may all of us see what's right, what's wrong.. and be guided by al-Quran and Sunnah, ameen~~

So here's the thing. Yesterday, I was blocked by an individual, who seems to unable to accept the advice that I gave. Thing is, it's simply an advice, a nice statement, nothing provocative or of any sort. 

So here's what she said : Those who wears veil.. is deviant.. syiah.. and so forth.. but why those 'half naked' are not labelled as deviant? Pity those who said that others are deviant.. Cause even he himself doesn't really know 'what Islam is'.. Pity..

My opinion? Here's mine :

I don't like the kind of people who likes to labelled others. He might be right, but he still have no right to label people.. So yes, I agree with the statement above, up until 'Pity those who said that others are sesat'. Full stop.

Now, the thing that I don't agree is everything afterwards.. Rather than putting it as such, why not simply put du'a, may they be given guidance.. put 'ameen' at the end of it, so everyone reading it would be praying for them.. no need to question whether they understand Islam or not.. no need.. she disagree with those who labelled people in veil, yet she somewhat labelled those who said so as someone who doesn't even know what Islam truly is.

So I comment to her status. It was simply a nice comment, lillahitaala.

What I put was (okay, I don't really remember, cause she deleted my comment, and blocked me soon after that. But this is the closest that I can remember) :

Salam. Feels like I wanted to share my point of view :) Would be good if you ended the status above with du'a, hoping that they will be given hidayah. Cause we never know where we will stand. In the future, we might be at the same spot, if not a little bit better, but he also might be far better than where us at at that time. Wallahualam.

And because of that comment, she blocked me from her FB. Truth is, I was reluctant to comment as such at the first place. But then, thinking that what if I were asked in the afterlife about this? So that's why, Lillahitaala, I posted the comment above.

The verdict is yours. With that, wassalam..

It's too much for me to handle!

Peace upon you.. and may He granted us with health and sufficient wealth to do good in this temporary world..

So again, I'm mad, and pissed off!

Last year was a total disaster (ahaha, favourite quote from masterchef!). Well, not really a disaster, but the emotion went roller-coaster.

There were moments when all I want is to run away. Last year was the year with many getaways, at the very last minute, out of the blue. All I needed was peace, a place to calm my heart. At times, my acts were just too much. But my husband still gave in everytime. And took me to places where I want to be. Or simply gave me the greenlight for me to have my own ride. With that, I thank you so much for your understanding and patience.

People keep on asking, and we keep on smiling. At last, I came up with an excuse (pathetic isn't it?). At times, I do wish to reply to them boldly. Like, 'it's individual sustenance, something that you never know. The same when you never know when you're going to die'. Like dude, it's not like something you order at mamak stall! It will be, when the time is right. The least you can do, is to shut up. And the best, is to pray for us, that's all. If you're asking with good intention, that we can detect, no worries. And that alone, we will not take it to heart.

And we also meet those who are insensitive. And yeah, that hurts so much more. Our smiley mask almost run out, and all we could do is to get far away, again and again. No, no, we're not hoping for bad things for them. Rather, we pray only the best for them. They may be so unbelievably insensitive, but we're not the lowly life who would wish for such.

Signing off --

Responsibility.. ever heard of that???

Peace be upon you.. may He guides us all to the righteous path..

Now, here's my thought, the matter that has been bothering me from the very beginning..

So here's to you, who I love dearly, but this very thing is such a nuisance.. my wish for you, is for you to realize it.. you're grown up, and yes, mature enough.. but this one thing is just too much to be ignored..

Here's the way I put it in words:

We were thinking for them, fear for them, wondering for them.. but it seems like they don't even have the slightest idea.. let alone, blind to the big picture.. 
at times, we feel for them.. but it never seem to occur to them that if empathy is not something that they can do for us, then the least we expect is sympathy.. but they seem to never have a clue!.. 
sometimes, I do hope that I stop doing so, cause what good can it brings?.. tormenting this frail heart and soul of mine.. but then again, I do pick up good traits that I get to learn from those good people around me.. which is to not lowering ourselves to the likes of you.. 
so to those concerned (I'm afraid they still don't think they're the one concerned), the brain is not there to stay idle.. faith that you have, is not for you to just pick any favourable law or principle, and practice only that.. 
ever heard of the Spiderman's quote?.. with Great Power Comes Great Responsibility.. if you're narrow minded, then automatically you would say that you're just an ordinary person.. 
well then, ever heard that we're the 'khalifah'?.. the moment you start wailing once you left your mom's womb, you already have a responsibility.. what is it, you're asking?.. oh well my dear, your first responsibilty is as a child.. as you grow older, you get more responsibility.. 
as you get to another stage in life, then there's some more for you to carry.. got that?..of course, you get another great 'power', if you know what I mean (I'm being sarcastic here, don't you get it?).. oh my, I'm simply rambling.. 
in the end, I will always end up helping.. but really hope that one day, you would (praying hard for that) understand your very own responsibility.. and you come to realize what responsibility that you're lacking when you're so engrossed to have another responsibility, that you end up forgetting that one..

Change of Mind

Peace be upon you.. and may all of us forever in His grace..

So, as per the subject said.. I change my mind.
I needed a place to pen my thought, the turbulence in me, and this might be the place.

I've had my fair share of ups and downs.. been through heaven and hell I suppose.
At times, you just couldn't find the right person to confide in.
Tears already flowing till it somehow dried up, and up to the point that you feel ashamed to keep on crying with the same matter to Him..
He never mind any of it, and with many challenges that He gives, it's a sign that He misses us, wanting us to not to forget Him, to turn to Him, and talk to Him.

So here the story..

I had miscarriage in October 2012.. and my mind never get back to normal, the least stable.
Because :

1. my period never have a cycle.. it just come and go whenever it wants
2. I'm the first in-law for husband's side, so it's naturally for parents-in-law to expect their grandchildren from us

Up to the point, that I hinted to the mother-in-law, that we want to wait until my husband finish his studies (he's doing part-time studies, weekend class). But that's not the truth. Truth is, I'm tired trying, don't want to make them to keep on hoping..

My inner self starts to get broken.. little by little..

And with news that my sis-in-law getting pregnant. How easy it was to them..

No, no, don't get me wrong. I'm simply let loose of what I keep on wearing all day, all time. This is me, this is what I I thought..

I know how to be grateful, I do know. But this is just me, a naked me. Mind with no rationalization.. yet.