ward-una

he was a quiet type

at times, liked to joke, but once in a blue moon

had a sweet smile, i like it so much when he smiled
he would do anything just to make those that he loves happy all the time
to an undescribable extent


but somehow, i'm just so stubborn to acknowledge it all
too proud to admit all that he is to me
and it's one of my greatest regret in my entire life
with now that he's gone...


will he knows that i did all that because i care?
that i'm too proud to show my love?


out of rage, out of my selfish judgement
i passed my own verdicts
hurting your fragile heart
when all you need at that time
was only love and care
from someone, you called a daughter

i know that all your sacrifices
was more than enough
to camouflage your weaknesses, your mistakes
but i choose to not to see it all


and there are many hope-to-do
suppose-to-do
not-suppose-to-do's
that i hope i have the opportunity
to rectify all that
but i know, it will not happen


last night, my heart hurt so much
that i felt like screaming
tears flowing without asking
by only having the thoughts of you


sincerely from my heart
i truly apologize for all my actions
that caused you pains and hurts
that you don't approve


and there is one thing i wish you know
when you're still here with us
is the fact
that i truly love you
i really do, please never doubt that
despite how all my doings were not in agreement with the statement


but please, whenever you doubt my words
for this one phrase
please, do not ever doubt it


I LOVE YOU, MY DEAREST FATHER


- may you rest in peace, with His blessings, always and forever

090909, you left us to be with Him

p/s: the earlier pic for mail-hah's post was taken from this link http://bikash.deviantart.com/art/mother-46888780

p/s/s: the above pic is taken from http://tazzer27.deviantart.com/art/In-my-Father-s-Arms-25659353